Oh wow.. I was just getting to know you and enjoy your words… your thoughts.. and insight. Your wife will support you I’m sure as you pursue the fiction angle but she is probably less invested in your path as you are only because it’s not hers. She has her own to pursue. Take the fork, friend, confident that as you settle into this and you find honesty with yourself , and your path, you will settle and she will settle alongside you. These platforms are disharmonious to mental health and yet we’re letting them weave into our lives letting the thread of needing to be heard dominant our psyche. Rest. It’s not worth fighting with yourself . I wish you well.